my favorite neighbor is moving. i can't stop thinking about it. i feel empty, sad, alone and somewhat jealous. i am going to missssss her. i saw her moving some boxes out of her apartment this morning and felt sick to my stomach. i don't think i have told anyone this, but i used to have nightmares of her moving out. i would wake up in a panic, then sigh of relief, since i knew she was still there on the other side. i don't know why it's bothering me. i guess it's that security. i trust her. i know she is there. if there is a tornado headed my way i can run right over to her. if im bored and want to hang out with someone i knock on her door. now all of that is going away. i also don't do well with change.. i have known her for about five years and now i know when i drive home i wont ever see her car in the parking lot. no more running to the balcony to say hi or bye. no more emailing her to gossip/complain about our other neighbors.. no more walks to the golf course.. her little doormat will soon be forever gone. she removed most of her patio furniture and her little dragonfly wind chime on her front door.. i feel like throwing up. today is a sad day for me. i also feel like i will be losing a friend. she is moving on with her new life and i am still here.. also, i have a feeling i will not like our new neighbor[s]. what a wierd weird day for me.
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awww I know my neighbour moved last year and I felt so sad, they had been there since I was born, 16 years of them there it was hard, I cried so much. I started remembering random little things like how when my brother was born and she held him I started crying because 'hes mummys baby mummys baby not yours' and how she laughed and how when I had no clothes to wear for some unexpected party she made me the most beautiful dress I could ever dream of having, and her daughter, was like 10 years older than me.. or more, and she used to play with me, even though for 5 or 6 years we hadn't got the time to speak to eachother we'd always know that they were right next door and if we needed sugar, tea bags or just a hug they'd be there. And yep I don't like my new neighbours, they're two women who stay locked up inside the house all day and get locked out of their house everytime they do bother to come out and then ask us for a drill but ask us in such a way as if I don't understand any english at all, completely ridiculous. "We need a drill... you know.. drill! [hand movements and all]" so yeah not to worry, the feeling'll soon pass, just cope with the new neighbours and you never know they may turn out to be nice after all...
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