pink.lemonade

starting to feel overwhelmed.. 

we are having lunch with davids college buddies today over in dallas.. i really don't' want to drive all the way out there :o( i feel fat and blah.. i haven't been feeling myself for a few days so i really just want to stay home and sleep or something.. instead we have to meet up with them.. don't get me wrong.. i like visiting his friends.. i just don't feel like it today..

david is getting on my last nerve too.. he always acts "funny" when we have to be somewhere.. he will just keep listing off things that need to be done even though i have told him to keep it to himself. i have my own list and it's organized the way it needs to be.. i don't like feeling overwhelmed and that's exactly where he has put me today.. then he wonders why i am in a weird mood.. um because you won't shut up about all the crap that needs to be done.. just chill the eff out for a few minutes while i collect my thoughts instead of springing all kinds of crap on me at once and expecting me to act all chipper and happy about it.. sorry but i don't function that way.. you would think in the 9 years he would have figured that out by now..

i really do have a lot i need to do this week.. i have to clean this place up.. ::looks around the house:: ugh.. then i have to start packing by thursday.. on saturday we have to take the train to the airport.. and that means we have to get up super early and leave super early.. everything needs to be finished.. I STILL haven't found a bella band.. it's getting frustrating.. i think i have passed the time limit i needed in order to order one online.. i just feel so overwhelmed and the more david tells me all the things we need to do the more overwhelmed i am going to become and the less chance i will get it done on time.. he needs to stop.. seriously.. putting me like this can bring down my immune system and that is the LAST thing i need right now.. i have never not had it all together.. i always get it done.. i have my own to do list.. he needs to shut up and be patient enough for me to get it together and just stick to his own list.. don't share it with me.. tia! 

have i mentioned how overwhelmed i feel today?! i want to stay home! i'm not depressed but i want to cry right now thanks to how i feel.. ugh.. let's hope a cool shower will help me feel better..