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ebay needs to be done. it's overtaking my dining room and makes all the hard work i have done seem unimportant. so i am starting it today. three items every two days until it is allllll gone! david thinks i am nuts for starting now considering ashton is due in a week. but when i think about it, it's the only time i will have slaves ::ehem:: i mean help from other people. my mom will be here on new years for a week and david has two weeks off when ashton is born. so technically, i will have three weeks where going to the post office will be easy as pie compared to me waiting until after ashton is born and everyone is gone and me standing in line with a screaming newborn while i frantically try to get my unwanted crap out of my house! i don't want to start it today. i feel really lazy this afternoon. 

i am so sick of everyone telling me, "you will just know"in regarding when i will have a real contraction. i mean, obviously i will know when i am in serious ACTIVE labor, but before that a lot of people don't know. example. braxton hicks are really uncomfortable to me. they aren't exactly "painless" like all the books tell you. they feel like horrible pms cramps and lately they have gotten a lot stronger in regards to feeling like my period is due any day now. which i guess if you think of it like that, it is. i had to go out and buy these pads that are as big as a house and i felt sad that i will have to wear them. anyway, my point is. i have no progress, according to my doctor said, equals to not having real contractions. so what i am feeling are just those "painless" fake labor crap contractions. but last night i woke up from DEEP sleep from having a painful "fake" contraction. it was only one. but um. how can i sit there and think "it's a fakey" when it woke me up from deep sleep? this waiting game is getting olllllld. then david's grandmother pulled me to the side last night and said, "i don't think i should tell you this, but i went overdue almost a month with my first"................. ashton i am telling your right now. you better not stay in there forever. life is so much more fun outside the womb, trust me. 

they tell you  not to do a lot of heavy work because it can cause labor.  so, starting today,  i will take my laundry to the laundry room by myself. i will ask david to park in the very back at every store or place we visit. i will finish this damn ebay. and i will sit on my birthing ball and bounce ashton out. i don't care how lazy or tired i am. i am DOING IT!