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i can only imagine it gets "worse".

i have been so exhausted lately.. first, i thought it might have to do with my thyroid.. since i was taking 75mcg of synthroid and my endo told me to take the 88mcg if i felt more exhausted than usual.. so i started them three weeks ago while in Europe. but the exhaustion remained the same. then i bulked it up to that we were just really busy in Europe.. always going places and moving around etc. but yesterday, when i woke up early and felt tired still i thought how it could have to do with the travel.. i mean different time zone.. jet lag.. all that fun stuff.. now i am not so sure..  i think it's just the pregnancy.. i fell asleep before 11pm last night.. i remember david trying to wake me up off the couch to come to bed and i was protesting him wanting to stay put because my body just wanted to SLEEP! then he wanted to cuddle and i wasn't having any of it.. sleep was the only thing i wanted.. poor david.. i feel so bad for him.. to not have anyone around to hug or talk to for almost three weeks then your wife comes back and she's too tired to do anything.. i can only wish this weekend will hurry up.. for david's sake.. i just can't explain why i am so tired all the time.. i had blood work done yesterday for my endo appointment today.. i wonder if the 88mcg helped at all.. even though i don't feel "energized". 

 i need to make another list.. since the list i made in germany only reflects what i THOUGHT i had to do.. now that i am here it's more.. so yeah.. and let me emphasize what i said prior before i realized how much there was to do.. THERE IS A LOT TO DO! i don't know if two months will be enough time to get it all done but i will figure it out somehow.. 

i am also bummed out about my beautiful Fleurville diaper tote.. i used it as a carry on, on my way to Germany.. for some stupid reason i put my orange juice that i got off the plane in the bag and forgot about it (it was a very busy time.. hectic..) it ended up being squashed and spilled all over the inside (it was a sealed container btw).. I HAD no idea this had happened until we got back from Paris and realized something smelled horribly wrong.. i washed it out and cleaned it as best as i could. but i don't think there is any hope of restoring the bag.. it smells like 100 smelly feet and a few dead animals.. i gag when i get a whiff of it.. now i am looking into another diaper bag.. another Fleurville.. it's a bit bigger than the tote (mothership)..  we might need it anyway.. as the tote isn't really large enough for a toddler.. baby, yes.. toddler, no.. (plus, and i don't know why i didn't think about this the first time we got the bag, what if i have a toddler and a baby? which is our plan btw) i want to douse the old bag in vinegar and let it air out for a month LMAO.. but then i am afraid the vinegar will only make it worse.. i just don't know what to do..  i have to get a new bag though.. i really like this one.. 

but it's $150 and the old blue.. (below) is on sale for $98.

i should get the older one since i already have one diaper bag and ruined it.. lol.. but i realllly love the new one more than the old.. david doesn't know i want a new diaper bag yet.. but he might agree we need a new one if i can't fix the smell of our tote and the fact the tote will be way too small for two kids.. i really LOVE this diaper bag. 

i think david would think it's too girly (at least it isn't PINK) lmao.. but who knows.. maybe the thought of ashton actually coming (since i got the other diaper bag way before i got pregnant.. i used it a purse)he might not feel silly carrying a baby around and a girly diaper bag.. i see men carrying girly pink diaper bags all the time..  our other diaper bag.. the tote is all black and looks unisex.. david doesnt' want his OWN bag. we would have to constantly switch out all the crap or whatever and he would rather just deal with ONE bag and be done with it.. 

other news, i didn't blog about it here at the time..  my mom purchased our rocker for us.. such a generous gift.. david and i refused to get the typical ugly gliders and the ones we felt we would be happy with were like $700.. david put his foot down on spending $700 on a ugly chair (our opinion only), it would only be used for less than 6years or so.. we have always loved the chicago textile puff rocker.. we went to the store and tested it out several times during the summer.. decided there that this is the rocker we would end up getting.. $330 is still pretty high but at least the rocker can be used for a lot longer and matches with our living room decor.. i can't wait for it get here.. this is what it looks like but ours is in a different color.. 

the rocker is the most comfortable rocker we have ever sat in. don't let the small size fool you.. the chair is HUGE (below).

i can't wait for it to finally arrive.. it has to be custom made so it will be awhile, but i hope it will arrive before October is up.. again, mom, if you are reading this.. THANK YOU SO MUCH for the chair! we are going to love it!

well, i better get off this damn computer and start making that TO DO LIST.. ack.. i have a ton of Europe pictures to share but it will be a few days before i will post them.. i still need to process them.