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OMG i am feeling great today! well feeling great in a sense that i had a good nights sleep (11hours!) and didn't choke on my own stomach juice.. lol

david recieved several surprise bonuses the last few weeks and he put a large amount aside for me to use for ashton's things/clothes last week. i have YET to spend ONE dime (thats how sick i have been!). i plan on changing that today. i am **this close** on washing his clothes.. i might wait until the rest of what i need or what i feel i need comes in. david's mother purchased her first gift to ashton. a lamby rug. omg i can't wait to get it in. we plan on using it as a nap mat, naked mat, and play mat (it seems large but maybe even in our stroller bassinet on cold days) . when he gets older i will let him sleep with it. i am a bit paranoid about letting him sleep sleep on it until the SIDS risk is way down. but i figure napping wouldn't be so bad since i will be keeping an eye on him anyway.

david and i almost have everything we **need**. i need a diaper caddy. i was going to buy this one by sarabear. we aren't having a changing table (to save space in our tiny apartment) so i sort of need something to store all my supplies. but i'm not so sure right now.. i still want it.. but i bet i could just use a simple basket and save myself $30. i don't know. i will have to debate further lol. i need a nursing cover so i may nurse in public without offending people. but again i am not sure if i should wait on getting that. i could attempt to make one myself. who knows if i will be successful in nursing.. we decided to hold off on buying a breastpump. i wouldn't be able to use it for a few months after ashton is born anyway since i plan on exclusively breastfeeding for the first months to build up my supply and develop a good latch. i might even want to rent one first to see if i even enjoy being milked like a cow.

then we need a bathtub.. i really dislike a lot of them out on the market.. i had originally wanted this one.. it's an awesome tub and received a huge amount of rave reviews.. but after i nested and cleaned out this tiny apartment i realized i had NO room for it. it's a REALLY large tub. i am curious about these new "euro" buckets.. there are several on the market right now.. and for the most people really enjoy them as well as their babies. the theory is that the baby feels as if he/she was in the womb again and calms them. i'm not sure that is what really sells me on it but the fact that it would fit in our apartment, space wise, does. i don't feel comfortable washing my baby in our kitchen sink. we usually have a lot of raw food in there and i don't know how well i actually clean it. :o/. it just irks me out a little bit to be honest. i wouldn't bath in it so why should my child?

i am 100% for sure getting a miracle blanket! i have a lot of other small things i need.. we hadn't planned on having a baby shower.. but after david's family found out we weren't' planning on one, they insisted we have some kind of family thing. as much as i appreciate their thoughts. i feel uncomfortable about it all. it's going to be held during the annual family christmas party (david's idea and i say family but they also invite neighbors and friends). they are going to have a "special" table set aside for gifts for ashton. they aslo asked us to register.. so i went to babiesrus walked around and realized i really don't have a lot to put on my registry. i feel really lame about that lol. i asked for a lot of small things like first aid kit, infant hair brush, diaper cream, some blankets, glass bottles to freeze breastmilk in, some toys that ashton wouldn't be able to use until he was a little older (4 months+ etc), and diapers etc. they probably won't even use the registry.. which is fine. personally i think if we do receive anything it will be baby clothes. baby clothing is the most fun in getting ready for a baby anyway. i feel like i should still buy that stuff BEFORE the christmas party. i mean ONE week before ashton gets here? and that is if he is on time. he could very well be early. david pointed out that all that stuff is pretty cheap and if he does come early it would be easy to get quickly. good point. i think it's just that nesting phase that drives you up the wall. ::sigh::

but for the most part that is all we need. it doesn't seem like much. there are of course things i wish i could get.. but don't need.. i want a new carrier. we have some hotslings. but i also want this carrier. i will wait though. i am on the fence about getting an infant swing. we have the amby baby bed. which swings. but i would have to push it myself and again, we don't have room for an infant swing. who knows, our baby might not even like to be in a swing. i also have a ton fo things i need to make. like infant bath robe, diaper bag, amby mattress pads, etc. now i am starting to feel like i do have a lot of stuff i need. lollllll. we have a lot of clothes we got ourselves. but i still need some things.. david wants to get some babylegs. lol. we decided to only get four pair.. the only problem that in between us both we like 12 lol.

we probably shouldn't have but we spent a lot on baby clothing. david and i just have so much fun picking cute things out for ashton to wear. i have caught him (including myself) taking the clothes out and admiring them. they are so freaking cute! my favorite is the socks.. they are SO TINY! i want to cook the socks and eat them they are that freaking cute!

can you tell i am nesting yet? i am glad i made this blog though. david has been asking me over and over what we all need (he claims people are asking him and he doesn't know what to say). now it's on the internet where he can come back to it whenever he wants! did i ever mention that babies are expensive? yeah they are really expensive! i knew they would be.. but now that we have to buy all this stuff/things it realllllly adds up quickly. david keeps wanting me to add up how much we spent but i know better.. some things are better left unsaid! i just hope i am getting things that can be used for more than one kid and last for a good while and still be nice enough to either sale or pass down as a gift. someday i will try to photograph all of ashtons new stuff and how i made room for this baby in our tiny 550sqft apartment (something my mother wants to see lol).

one more thing.. david has been getting on to me relentlessly because i haven't updated my belly picture (last one was 25weeks.. i am now almost 33weeks).. i promise one will be coming soon.. maybe even today lol.. ashton has grown!