i wish i had a video camera (omg another thing we will need before baby gets here lol..) my cat, velveeta, is sleeping right next to me.. she is curled up in the sweetest ball.. she is snoring.. it's seriously the most adorable thing ever! i wish i could record it.. and keep it forever!

something about seeing beautiful creative photography lights up my heart.. i love my flickr account. i can't wait for our baby to be born.. i love child photography the most. and i have so many ideas to use on my own children thanks to all the inspiration you can get from flickr.

i only had a few contacts on my account. if you are not familiar with flickr. when you add a contact you are updated when they (photographers) upload more pictures.. i have had to delete a few photographers because i realized their photography never really spoke to me. or made me feel happy yadda yadda yadda. one girl just kept taking the exact same picture over and over and over of her daughter.. they were beautiful pictures but it made me feel like it's all she could do..

i sign into flickr everyday hoping and holding my breath that someone has uploaded more pictures.. so i went searching for more contacts.. and boy did i find another favorite.. right now.. angela is my absolute favorite photographer.. she takes some of the most amazing pictures of her children i have ever seen.. she really captures them as a whole.. her pictures tell a story.. they are warm.. inviting.. captivating and just beautiful! now i have a new favorite.. i found him yesterday.. his disney world pictures SOLD ME! you can see them here.. aren't they amazing pictures? someday, i would love to be as good as these two photographers.. i know it takes practice and time ( i feel i have learned a lot already and yet there is so much more to learn) and lots of money because the type of lens (or glass, as real photographers like to call it) and camera you use really helps! i haven't even been doing this for a year yet.. but i tend to be impatient with things i want to succeed at.. especially now before our child gets here.. i want to take beautiful pictures like them.. anyway this new guy can take some great pictures.. not just of disney world, but pretty much anything.. click here to view his other pictures..

looking at his pictures just proves i need a tripod BADLY before i head to europe! i don't know if i will be able to get my lenses in time.. in fact, i know i won't.. i could rent lenses but the fact i will be there for a month will make it expensive.. so that won't be a good option for me.. i might rent a few lenses for a week, if i still haven't been able to purchase them by the time butterball gets here (and lets face it.. i know that won't be a reality.. $1200 for a lens.. or $1200 for baby stuff.. yeah baby wins that one.. lol)

david and i plan on avoiding getting "professional" pictures done.. i really hate pictures from sears, kiddie kandids, those sorts of places etc.. they are 99% generic/boring and so posed bleh!.. hiring a real photographer can be pretty expensive.. soo, i plan on doing all my own "professional" shots of my children... whew.. i have my plate filled with that lol.. i might get a better flash and a flash diffuser before germany.. they are pricey.. but WAY cheaper than the lenses and the effect they give me would be worth the cost.. in my opinion anyway..

::sigh:: i wish i could win money or something.. there is so much i want/need and so much money wanted/needed to get these things.. blah.. LMAO!

oh.. not sure if anyone else heard about this.. i have to blog about this because it's so disgusting and makes me ill.. but there has been another case where a psycho lady cut open a pregnant lady and stole the baby.. she first claimed the child was hers (as they always do), then said she paid a girl $1000 for the baby.. cops went looking for the real mother.. searched the psycho ladies house and found a corpse.. at the time (yesterday) they didn't mention if the corpse was a female or male.. but this afternoon they released the info that it was in fact a female and her uterus had be cut open.. sick.. disgusting.. i feel like throwing up!

there was another case like this not to long ago up in seattle somewhere.. most of these psychos lie about being pregnant to their friends and relatives before doing this.. this recent lady is completely nuts.. she has TRIED to do this with a few other people but the victims were able to escape (one victim was stabbed numerous times before being able to escape).. the psycho was even put into prison for awhile for the stabbing and was released on probation.. poor mother (victim)... justice sucks sometimes.. if they kept the psycho in jail where she belongs (FOREVER) this poor mother would still be alive with her child..

anyway.. the whole story freaks me out a little bit.. stories like those always made me gag.. now that i am pregnant it worries me.. so i have vowed to become more aware of my surroundings.. especially towards the end of my pregnancy..

nothing new.

i am almost back to my old self. still feeling a bit stuffy in my head.. but it's improving everyday. i am actually in the mood to tackle the bathroom today.. sort of, lol.

yesterday evening we actually had some raindrops.. it didn't pour as i had hoped it would. but the smell of rain and the temperature drop was a nice change from this horrible texas heat... blah.. i really despise summers here.. i can not wait for the fall! texas has the best falls.. it so mild.. and comfortable.. i can't wait!

did i mention how much i hate this damn heat? i am so sick of hearing the forecast.. "triple digits everyday this week.. no rain. blah blah blah. orange and red air quality warnings. blah blah blah. oh look here is a tiny tiny tiny storm. it's only covering one block of houses.. but who cares.. it's a tiny tiny storm. lets keep everyone updated on this tiny tiny storm that won't do anything other than release a few sprinkles that will evaporate before they hit the ground.." yay let's celebrate.. our drought is over! ::blank stare::

they are interrupting normal shows talking about two TINY storms right now. are you farking kidding me? maybe i am just resentful because those tiny tiny storms are no where near me.. it's a jealousy thing. ugh. i hate this heat.. HATE IT! I AM SO SICK OF BEING INSIDE ALL DAY!

today i got 9 hours worth of sleep.. i was so tired when i woke up.. i have been having some mild cramping like pain.. i'm not too worried about it.. i think i might have pulled a ligament last night trying to get out of bed to pee for the one millionth time.. david is going to have to switch me sides soon.. my side of the bed is up against the wall and it's almost impossible for me to get out of bed without some sort of pain.. i love it when david has gone to work or has woken up before me. i just roll myself out on his side.. pumpkin (one of our cats) loves to sleep right next to my back in the mornings.. she likes to stay warm (she sleeps out in the living room with the other cats at night.. but takes her naps during the morning in the bedroom.. then moves her little butt outside on the patio where she sleeps until the evening.. in the heat.. this cat is obsessed with HEAT). anyway, i always forget she is there and she isn't used to me rolling over to get out of bed yet.. so i have startled her a few times.. and scared me silly thinking i just killed my cat by suffocation or crushed to death with my body on top of her... then she looks at me like "wtf, are you mental or something?"

ARGH! THEY ARE TALKING ABOUT THE STUPID TINY STORMS AGAIN! i want to hit them.. i mean these storms can't be bigger than a 1/4th a mile long! and the forecasters are even admitting these storms will not get any bigger... SO WHY THE HELL are they acting like we are going to be in a flash flood soon.. so annoying! arrrrggghhh.. i need to get out of this house.. badly. this damn heat keeps me a prisoner! I HATE TEXAS SUMMERS hate them! thats it.. im going to target tonight and getting me a pool floaty.. i am going to start hanging out in our apartments pool.. i haven't before since there are always rowdy teenagers with no respect in there.. but i can't stand it anymore.. our gym pool doesn't allow the use of floaties.. i have to do something to get out of this damn house. it's making me hostile!

the plus side of pregnancy.. other than the obvious baby that comes from it.. you get to wake up in the middle of the night and eat whatever you want without feeling guilty!

last night i woke up with an empty rumbling stomach around 2am... i wanted to wait it out until morning but my stomach wasn't having any of it.. so i got up.. had a handful of dried cranberries.. six graham crackers.. handful of pretzels with mustard.. two small popsicles and a bowl of frosted mini wheats with milk.. all in ONE hour.. then my stomach decided it finally had enough and i was allowed to go back to sleep! despite my rather large snack.. i woke up this morning STARVING!

its almost 2am and i am again HUNGRY! i have had a rather large (LATE) dinner the last few nights.. so i am surprised how hungry i get!

i gained a pound since last week! yay! i hardly had anything to eat this week from how sick i was.. i am surprised i was able to gain any weight.. i am so excited that my baby is getting bigger.. i'm weeks away from being able to feel him move around. i can't wait.. i have had certain moments where i have felt something and think, "could be the baby", but i'm not sure. usually i feel it in the morning.. now to think of it.. i feel it almost every morning but who knows.. however, my doppler is now able to pick up butterballs heartbeat anywhere on my stomach. yay for growing fetuses! i love my baby! i am so excited about having him.. (i keep saying him because i just KNOW its a boy.. tanna can say girl all she wants.. but it's a boy.. you just watch.. my gut is always right).

my 16week appt is thursday.. nothing special.. i know they are doing blood work because she told me they would be.. yippee i guess. lol.. i am more excited about thursday because it's the day i get to schedule my BIG ultrasound! AUGUST could not get here fast enough.. ugh..

i wanted to do something fun when we found out the sex.. like have the ultrasound tech write boy or girl and stick it in an envelope and open it by ourselves at a picnic or restaurant etc.. i asked david what he wants to do and he said "i want to know right then and there".. so i guess that's what we will do lol.. im not disappointed with him wanting to know right away.. just thought it was funny he wants to skip all the cutesy stuff and get right to the point lol. typical male.

well, i better go eat something.. my stomach is starting to get pissy with me.

feeling so much better today.. i had a rough night last night.. did some research for some home remedies for sore throat due to a post nasal drip and the remedy actually worked! thank goodness.. now i wish i had done it a few days ago! i also took some benadryl and tylenol to help stop the drainage and maybe help with the headaches etc. i ended up sleeping the rest of the night and most of the day away like a baby.. obviously, i needed the rest.. its now almost 11pm here and my sore throat is FINALLY GONE! it was an awful experience though.. i will not describe how gross it was.. it was really bad after i applied the home remedy for a good 10mins.. my body (or nose) was holding back a lot of .. well.. never mind. either way, after the ordeal i felt so much better and have been improving ever since. my appetite is back.. i still have a stuffy head.. my ears are stuffed up.. and i get real dizzy if i get up too fast.. (i'm thinking it's all the fluid in my sinuses), other than that.. everything is so much better than it was that i actually cooked dinner tonight!

weekend was a bust though, thanks to my allergies.. poor david had to sit around and do nothing.. he wanted to see a few movies this weekend and i wasn't even in the mood to watch them! oh well.. next weekend "the dark knight; batman" comes out.. i know we will make up all our movies by then lol.

sick.sick.sick.

that is what i am. we got up super early this morning to go to the peach festival.. my throat HUURRT so bad. but i figured i would start to feel better through out the day.. it took us an hour to get there.. and it was HOTTER than hell. in the morning mind you.. i started itching really crazy.. which is strange, i have never experienced that in my life.. i was sweating so bad.. i was extremely dizzy and feel faint.. i checked my pulse and it was racing fast.. no matter what i did.. sit down.. take a break.. drink lots of water.. nothing helped.. i was so miserable! after and hour david had enough and said we are going home.. i didn't want to, i wanted to eat all the peach stuff and enjoy the festival (which was huge and looked like so much fun btw) but it was 100f by noon! im telling you.. i can not tolerate this heat AT ALL! i know its because i am pregnant and SICK.. so i am trying not to be too worried about it.. but i just felt horrible.. i was having horrible cramps and of course i started to freak out that the heat was going to make me miscarry.. we drove back home.. i started to feel worse.. so i decided i should take a nap or something.. i passed out for four hours.. david also took a nap. woke up with my throat EVEN WORSE than it was in the morning, if you can believe that.. it's really bad! my eyes itch.. my ears itch.. my nose won't stop running and my throat is on fire every time i swallow!

so miserable! david got on to me because i only had a bowl of cereal this morning and it was almost 5pm and i needed to eat.. i wasn't hungry at all.. i wasn't sick to my stomach or anything.. just not hungry.. thirsty though.. i ran out of carbonated mineral water so it's been hard for me to drink fluids. we went out to eat and i could barely eat my dinner.. i started to go into a sneezing fit at the restaurant. I JUST FELT LIKE CRAP! i told david i was taking benadryl as soon as i got home.. i wanted to take it earlier but didn't because that stuff KNOCKS ME OUT!.. david said, "noooo.. then you won't go to lifetime with me tonight and go swimming"... i looked at him like he was nuts and said, "um... if i feel like this, i won't go swimming anyway.." we went to walmart for me to stock up on my mineral water, puff tissues with lotion, and ricola's. and came straight home.. i still feel like crap! i just want to feel better! and stop sneezing.. my nose is already raw from today. i'm not tired or anything, and no fever.. i just don't know.. i know a doctor can't do anything for me.. it's just something i have to wait out.. so i guess bitching about it here is the only comfort i really get right now... hopefully tomorrow will be a much better day! i pray it will.

david and i visited an antique store at the peach festival to cool off (the festival is held in the old downtown area of weatherford.. reallly beautiful town. i loved it).. it was in the really old building.. it was so neat. the building had SO much character.. the third floor.. which was my favorite.. looked original. there was peeling old wall paper on the walls and the ceiling height must have been 20feet or so.. i sat up there and imagined how it must have been someone's living quarters back in the day.. i want to go back and take pictures of it.. i did take my camera along but i wasn't in the mood to deal with taking pictures (that speaks volumes of how bad i was feeling).. we split up to look around etc and when i found david, he was looking at this silver cat ring holder.. it was so cute.. we ended up getting it for $5.. i really like it and the fact david picked it out makes it even more special! i really needed one.. david is always worried about my rings.. i take them off a lot. he always finds one in those air flight magazines and insist we get it.. you know the ones they have on airplanes with all kinds of gadgets you can purchase etc? they are like $20 or more. david felt it was a bargain.. it will be a memory of my first trip to the peach festival and i felt like crap but i love it! it was my favorite part of the day! i will take a picture of it later when i feel better..

i hate being sick! it started off with an allergy fit that seemed to last forever and then my sore throat and headaches started.. its getting better but its been a tough few days.. i can hardly talk, eat, or drink thanks to the sore throat.. but carbonated mineral water seems to be helping a bit. i want to avoid taking any medications while pregnant..

tomorrow is the peach festival. i still plan on going so i really hope this cold or whatever it is takes a hike.

i am now at 15weeks along! still can't believe it! i just read this in my pregnancy week by week on babycenter.com..

"You've probably gained about 5 pounds by now (a little more or less is fine, too) and are well into the swing of your pregnancy, but you may still be surprised by an unexpected symptom now and then. If your nose is stuffed up, for instance, you can probably chalk it up to the combined effect of hormonal changes and increased blood flow to your mucous membranes. This condition is so common, there's even a name for it: "rhinitis of pregnancy." Some pregnant women also suffer nosebleeds as a result of increased blood volume and blood vessel expansion in the nose."



interesting and ironic week 15 is the week i started having all these "allergy" issues.. and i can't believe my baby is the size of an apple! woot!

david is going to be home soon and he is going to ask "want to go to the club tonight and swim?" and for the first in the last four months he has asked me (everyday) i will say "why yes, i think i do".

i keep thinking about being in COLD water today.. i just want to lay in cold water and float. i checked our clubs class schedules online.. looks like they have added more aqua classes.. i might just start tomorrow.. classes are M,W,TH, & F at 8:45am. that is kinda early.. i would have to leave here by 8am or so. and it's an hour long class.. it will probably still be cool enough to go to the park afterwards to do some cardio (park is right next door to the gym).. hopefully it won't be too hot by then. dr advised me NOT to get on any type of moving machine since i have been dizzy lately.

oh yeah.. i was supposed to take my last dosage of metformin today.. and i didn't! HA. i am such a bad girl.. i hope in the upcoming days i see freedom from the drug.

i am extremely annoyed right now.. i really wish david could get a different job with a different company.. preferably one who doesn't screw over their employees over and over and over and over without a break. it's bugging me so much that i am taking it out on david.. i can't help but feel resentment towards this company! and to top it off.. they are having the meeting about our health insurance this week.. yup, they are screwing us over on that too.. i'm telling you.. it's one thing after another with his company! SO SICK OF IT! if they don't start showing some damn appreciation to their employees by the time our baby arrives.. i am go to bug david to go with someone else.. this is just BS!

i spoke way too soon. today's attempt to wake up around 7am or at least 8am was a complete bust.. i don't know if i needed the sleep or if i was enjoying my dream so much i didn't want to wake up. ::sigh:: either way.. there is always tomorrow.. i woke up around 2pm.. i know.. wtf right? i remember waking up at 9am and thinking.. "i should probably get up now.. aww what the hell ten more mins won't hurt". how wrong i was. i was still rubbing my eyes and yawning when i remembered my stroller hanger was supposed to arrive today.. UPS always delivers before 1pm.. i really didn't want to have to go to the office to pick up my package.. i was crossing my fingers as i opened the door to see if they left the "you weren't here" slip. i was disappointed when i saw it flapping away in the wind. 'damn damn' i thought to myself. now i have to get ready and go to the office to pick it up.. i noticed that the slip looked a bit different this time.. usually they write "OFFICE" on the front of the slip to let me know they left it there.. but this time it said "IN FRONT OF PLANTER".. huh? so i open the door again and look down and there it was.. my package!!!! this thing is heavy duty.. i hung it in one of the closets i hope to store the stroller but i am having second thoughts that it probably won't fit in that closet.. i will figure something out!

i also tried cleaning my tub last night with one of my new cleaners.. it made the bathroom smell nice and clean.. but it didn't really do that great of a job cleaning anything.. so i went back to my magic eraser and hot water/vinegar.. it got my bathtub sparkling.. i might go over it today with the cleaner to make it smell nice.. not sure.. but that was a bit of a disappointment.. i probably won't buy that again. i also opened the method air freshener..

it's sort of funny looking, but i love the simplicity look to it.. you stick a gel insert in and it's supposed to freshen your small space.. since all our plugs are used in the bathroom i opted for a freshener that didn't require any batteries or electricity..by golly i kept waking up through out the night thanks to how strong the scent was. i am hoping it starts to tapper off in the next few days.. i wonder if david noticed the smell.

i can't wait till tomorrow.. it's the last day on metformin.. i almost want to stop RIGHT now. but i would feel guilty so i will just be a big girl and finish it.

i do have something funny to share.. i have started over on my tv on dvd rotation.. right now i am still on I LOVE LUCY season one, volume 8. [almost done with season one].. anyway last night it was the "Lucy does the Vitameatavegamin Commercial".. FREAKING hilarious! i couldn't stop laughing and was worried i would wake david up.. lucy was absolutely a genius.. her facial expression is really what completes her hilarity! anyway, it's just a clip of the episode but completely worth watching! unfortunately, they clip leaves out why lucy starts acting "drunk" towards the end.. the 'vitameatavegamin' contains 23% alcohol.

can you believe these bottles are actually cleaning products?

for the new year, i made a vow to stop using harsh poisonous chemicals to help our earth and the health of our family and pets. the last six months i have been cleaning our house with baking soda, vinegar, barkeepers friend, and ivory liquid soap. i would be lying if i said i didn't miss that fragrant "clean" smell the chemical filled cleaning products would leave behind. we have four cats and even though we do a pretty good job at keeping the house smell like we only have one cat, back in the day it was nice to clean the house, leave, and come back to that "clean smell". soooo, i went out today and purchased almost all of the method line. i'm not sure how well they clean yet.. but they smell so goooooood. i hope it works out.

i also purchased my first maternity shirt. i really wanted to go to gap maternity at the galleria to check out their jeans in dallas, but david didn't feel like driving all that way there and back. so we went to mimi maternity at our local mall. we went to get out of the house and browse, but david insisted i get myself something. sooo, i ended up getting a cute white scrunched shirt for $44..

they had a cheaper version by motherhood maternity but the cotton was rather rough on my skin and you could tell the quality was horrible, it wouldn't have lasted very long.. so we went ahead and spent the extra money on the mimi maternity brand. i used the fake pregnant stomach you strap to your belly.. i can't wait to wear this shirt with a belly.. i love it! so cute! i still need to go to gap though. they sell long maternity jeans. i might just order them online and return them if i have to. it might be easier than driving an hour to the galleria and back. i don't need maternity clothes yet.. but i need to start getting some outfits together for my europe vacation that is only two months away! it's easier to spend money here and there rather than buying all at once lol. i only plan on getting four or five complete outfits that i can mix and match with each other. no need for me to spend money on a bunch of clothes i will only wear for 6 months or so.. i am sure i will lounge around in the same stuff i lounge around in now.

also, today was the first day i ever suffered lower back pain. it was horrible. now that i am starting to feel more energetic and less "first trimester", i should really take advantage of that old people/pregnant water class they offer at lifetime fitness.. i have never taken the class but i should at least try it out. i need to do something now before the belly realllly starts growing. i need to work on my sleeping habits too.. during my first tri, i would go to bed around midnight and sleep until about 11am.. now i am going to bed at 2am and waking up around 10am.. what i want to do is get to bed at 11pm and up by 7am. i will work on that this week! i am looking forward to it. i could go to the zoo early in the mornings while it still cool to get a workout.. they have hills and stairs to climb to help me get adjusted to all the extra blood flow for my trip. plus i am sure the baby will love it too.. all the wooshing around from my body movements..

i decided it was time for a new belly picture.. i don't think i am any bigger. if anything the belly appears smaller.. grr.. stillllll no weight gain. 148lbs. but i am feeling great!

11 weeks.......................................14weeks

my prayers have been answered! i still check my business account. since, SOMEDAY i plan on getting back to making those covers.. and soon because now i need money more than ever.. babies aren't free ya know.

every once in awhile i go through my emails and save the ones that need to be saved etc.. lately i have been getting a lot of spam messages.. and because they send me email through a form instead of from their email address i have been getting quite a few and it's impossible to avoid. almost so much that i hated checking the account and updating it.

tonight i decided to check it before going to bed. to my surprise it's a NEW EMAIL system. they FINALLY updated it. the old version sucked. it was hard to navigate and figure out which email wa spam and which were real inquries. the only way to find out was by clicking the email and having to go back to delete it. pain in the butt if you ask me. well this new version is sooo much easier. it shows me automatically before i even click the message if it's spam or a real inquiry.. totally awesome. i love it. it took me 2mins to go through everything.. where before it would take 30mins to an hour.

BUT that isn't my favorite thing they updated.. I CAN NOW USE HTML in my emails.. that means i can make super cute banners and emails to send out in my email flyer's [people sign up for them. i don't spam anyone that didn't want the info]. so exciting!

thank you tripod for finally updating your email system. this one is a much better version! it's now called zimbra. which i think you can get even if you don't have tripod but costs something. not sure. whatever it is. it's high tech and pretty awesome!

btw.. sneezing causes extreme pain.. round ligament pain. ouchie!

am i doomed with bad luck when i purchase stuff online? lol. i ordered my stroller hanger for my bugaboo stroller that is collecting cat hair since the cats love it as a bed sitting on the living room floor, TEN DAYS AGO. i finally get an email with a UPS tracking code and it was just shipped today. ten days to process an order? bummer. i was hoping to have it in a few days. i am ready to get this stroller off the floor!

today was the first day since my BFP that i have felt so much energy! i was able to do laundry without feeling exhausted! and i have been able to get a lot of things on my 'to do list' done. i still get out of breath if i have to climb stairs. i made several trips to the laundry room today[which is a hike]. i decided to wash my prefolds [we plan on cloth diapering and i ordered a few to check out sizes and quality]. did you know you have to "prep" cloth diapers? yeah. it sucks [really it only sucks if you don't have your own washer/dryer]. you have to wash the diapers. dry. then wash again dry. wash again dry. wash again and finally your last dry.. i washed them a total of FOUR times! [as recommended] phew. so i had a lot of trips to the laundry room and by the end of it was able to climb up the stairs without feeling so out of breath. the bonus, i did this all in the horrible texas heat. i survived whoot!

i also found a diaper we plan on using once the baby gets into mediums.. we plan on using prefolds for the first few months since modern diapers are expensive [$20+ a diaper]. newborns usually go through more diapers than they do as they get older.. so wasting all that money on expensive diapers seems pointless to me. anyway, as i said. i think we found a diaper we are going to be really happy with. bum-ware AIO's [AIO=all in ones]. they are pretty neat diapers.. they don't require any work. just put on baby. throw in the wash when dirty and repeat. no stuffing. no diaper covers. no pins. nothing. they also received high ratings from users so it appears promising! david is excited about using cloth diapers. i am so happy to have a supportive husband. for a short moment a few months ago, i started telling him maybe we should stick with disposables [which we still plan to use on vacations and when our baby is left with family members not comfortable with cloth etc]. not once did he agree.. he kept insisting we stick with cloth.. he wants to do cloth over disposables. amazing. i have the most amazing husband ever! so supportive. he is 100% supportive of my decision to go through labor med free in a birthing center with a midwife. most husbands aren't comfortable with these type of things so i am truly blessed.

i don't think i praise him enough though. he is seriously the best ever. the last 14 weeks have been hard for me to keep up with my daily chores.. i got really behind most of the time and he would come home to a messy apartment. instead of complaining or getting upset he would DO all my chores with a smile on his face and a sweet "don't worry about it sweetie. i will do it all. lay down and rest". i haven't felt like cooking in forever since smells set me off.. so he would drive ANYWHERE i wanted to pick up food. WITHOUT COMPLAINING! david works his butt off all day in the texas heat and has to come home only to have to keep working. it just amazes me. david and i have been together for 9 years now. he has never called me a name or even CUSSED! i know that sounds impossible but david has never uttered a cuss word. ever! he never puts me down for anything i do. when i do something stupid and i know it's stupid, i often criticize myself outloud with "gosh why am i so stupid".. david would immediately look at me and say "honey. you are NOT stupid" EVEN though we both know whatever i did was stupid lol. in fact i recall our trip to las vegas last fall and i screwed up the dates on our flight back home. we ended up having to pay twice for our tickets back home.. i was in TEARS. david didn't even get mad. he hugged me and said "it's not a big deal. you are not stupid. quit saying that.. it could happen to anyone.".. i couldn't have loved him more that day. if it was the other way around i guarantee i would have not been so happy and supportive as him. david has always been like this. anyone who knows him, knows this. my mom could go on and on how great i have it. i don't praise him enough. why God blessed me with such a beautiful adventurous life with the most amazing husband, i don't know. i keep wondering what i did to deserve it. i just hope i am not taking it for granted and God knows how much i appreciate everything he has done/provided for me! especially david. he really is my rock! my best friend. he is everything to me! and i can't believe he is going to be a father.. the unconditional love i feel from him, just proves how amazing of a father he is going to be. he deserves the baby more than i do. i can't wait to see our first child in his arms.

i am so sappy tonight.. lol. i can't help it.. i really don't praise him enough. especially with my pregnant mood swings.. im sure he feels deflated and exhausted. yet the love i saw in him when he first told me he loved me is still there and stronger than ever! and i can't help but shout out to everyone how awesome he is!

:::sigh::: okay i will stop with the sappiness

i realized the day i get to stop metformin [less than a week away] is the same day I DREAM OF JEANNIE season 5 on dvd comes out! i know i have mentioned this before. but i go through rotations of old tv sitcoms on dvd. i usually start with I LOVE LUCY, continue with BEWITCHED and end with I DREAM OF JEANNIE and start ALL over. i finished all my I DREAM OF JEANNIE dvds over a week ago. i was going to wait until season 5 came out to start I LOVE LUCY but couldn't. i usually watch these right before bed.. they tend to relax me. i can't explain it. so i had to start I LOVE LUCY all over again last night.. i swear no matter how often i watch these sitcoms, i never get sick of them.. i bet you a million bucks I LOVE LUCY will be playing in the background when i give birth to my kid! lol. david is probably sitting there reading this part and shaking his head at me because he knows it's true lmao. i often imagine myself breastfeeding our children while watching the sitcoms. because again. they RELAX me lmao. whew.. issues i say.

david has his favorites too.. though he isn't as OCD as i am. he loves SCOOBY DOO WHERE ARE YOU! [the original]. ADAMS FAMILY [the 50's sitcom] and the original TWILIGHT ZONES [again 50's]. see we are perfect for each other.. we both love 50's shows lmao. oh yeah, can't forget THREE STOOGES.. david LOOOOVES them, in fact THREE STOOGES is his absolute favorite!! no wonder we have been able to live without cable lol. TV on DVD seriously ROCKS! we couldn't live without it! our kids are going to watch TV at their grandparents house, who both have satellite.. and turn to us with these huge eyes saying, "YOU MEAN TV IS IN COLOR?".. HAHAHAHAHAHA. nothing wrong with loving classic tv shows.

booooo to hot weather. evening news says fourth of july will be almost 100f.. :o(

i have been lazy today. i have/had a lot of things that need[ed] to get done. and again i didn't do any of it. ugh. blah blah blah. david is on his way home and the place is a mess.. i deserve the best housewife of the year award. since you know. i deserve it and all. :o/